it's not that i wanna be emo or what but...
sometimes... i just feel so down..
i never knew that sometimes..
people's laughter could make me feel so bad...
especially when im not part of it...
im not trying my best to fit in...
cause i think if i do try hard to do that..
i'll look stupid..
and i dont want to
everytime,
i think of all these stuff...
why din it happen
my tears try to wet my face...
but i hold it back..
i told myself..
it's not worth it..
if they care for you..
they will want you to be in it..
and not leave you there alone..
when you're not there..
they will want you to be there..
and have fun with you..
pure fun...
they will ask you to join em
but since they dint
then it's not worth it to let a single tear drop for them
maybe..
im a little too sensitive
maybe..
im jealous..
but..
it's me..
i cant help it..
i just dont feel good..
maybe that's why i rather face the computer..
at least i wont be hurt..
thou..
ignorance could be a bliss..
but words that hurt could be worse..
being ignored..
i could recover easily..
but being hurt by words..
could take a long time to heal...
maybe after a long time..
the wounds are still there...
making you feel the pain once in a while..
gets worse when another cut is made..
Lord,
you're my healer..
please heal my wounds..
that it will fully recover..
from wounds that are made by ignorance and words that hurt..
in Jesus name i pray,
Amen.
